Tuesday, January 26, 2010

I Have Bead Block

It's been a few months since I've made any beads. I'm dying to make some, but I can't figure out what kind of beads I want to make. I want to make something unique and exciting, something different than my usual beads, but nothing is coming to me. Nothing at all. If I try to sit and think about it, I get a blank wall. I can't visualize anything and I don't know what's wrong with me.

Meanwhile, I've been trying to make realistic glass eyes for polymer doll sculptures, which is another area I want to pursue. I've always loved to sculpt and I know I will enjoy sculpting fairies, mermaids and other fairytale beings. But, not until I get the doll eyes right. I have tried several different methods of making the doll eyes, but so far none have been what I am trying for. A couple of them are close, but not quite there.

At the same time, I have recently discovered encaustic painting which is a lot of fun and very interesting. And of course, there are also oil paintings in my closet just waiting to be finished and those are always in the back of my mind. In fact, I have quite a few arts and crafts projects either waiting to be finished, or waiting to be started.

Then there's the vivarium I am wanting to build for my little Whites Tree Frogs. I have the tank, I've siliconed an acrylic divider into it for a pond and plan to make a little waterfall for them. I have everything I need to do this, but I can't get myself to get to it.

Most of the day, I spend it trying to figure out what I want to do the most. I have so many things pulling me in all different directions, I don't know where to begin. The next thing I know, the day is almost over and is wasted.

Why can't I just come up with a plan of action and do it? I'm sure the reason I am so blocked, creatively, is because I have so much to do, and can't seem to get anything done. I think I have so much on my mind, that I just can't focus on anything. No just creative wise, but also everyday normal living wise. Someone has to clean the house, take care of the animals, do laundry, etc.

There's got to be a way to get past this and out of this slump. I know I could make a list and just do one thing at a time and check it off the list. This sounds easy enough, but I've tried it. I still get sidetracked no matter how hard I try not to.

I feel overwhelmed, and it's only going to get worse with Spring when the yardwork and gardening starts pulling at me.

What to do, what to do?